H.O.P.E.S

alhamdulillah its been 3 month ++ become a s.t.u.d.e.n.t again. having 7 month in holiday mood from study, i mean after finished my undergraduate dgree i think im getting more appreciate the moment become student  whom alwayz made their day busy. with da esaimen , test, paper in every corner, lab report n talking2, walking2, making friend, making enemy, making suffer, making pain, joy , love, happy n making every part of sense with awesome  f.r.i.e.n.d

where im suppose to do in order getting back the same memories?? absolutely yes is none.. 

all crazy thing alwayz happen in one line.

that only u get when u with ohsem friends.

lucky me have the superb thing happen in life. amazing journey of pain n suffer and become more stronger little lady.

new home new life

this is my new home background. i love this thing. when i was child i wishes i have this kind of view from home balcony. hooray my dream came true la konon.  this taken from balcony of  my apartment.

when im alone i mean wanna be alone, i love sittingn watching this panorama like watching tv drama. since we r so closer wif main hospital, the nee noo nee noo sound is usual. so be prepared in 24/7. erghh not really enjoy here to drive if u dont know the short cut distance to go everywhere ,trafic jam is usual n positive thing. hahahaha i need explore more place and the road also i guess . i mean by own with diba.  :) well thanks alot to my best friend diba :) 

currently officially as master medical science's student 

nothing change so much, nothing to story more only bla bla bla n bla..people here not really friendly as my place before. they more love talking their puak or gang or whut everlah. in small cluster organization until everybody know you. the lecturer, head department also staffs will exactly know who n where are you.

everyone has same thought, everyone has same aims. but seem they dont try to push up together. ah forget bout them.. actually if you greet them wisely they will treat you nicely. i mean in professionalism in their way la :) dont worry, they a good person instead .

my supervisor treat me as worker, where im suppose to come the lab exactly like others workers, 8 a.m. until 4.30 a.m. but since im too g.o.o.d in follow instruction.. i came about 8.00-8.30 am n get excited to go back in 4pm already.. hahaha im not working ok. no salary.. lalalala im just student so its suka hati lah... even actually they gv me advice n warn me as kiasan sign only...haha im not aware sometime directly 

ok dont get me wrong. here im doing my work under 3 main person. lab asistant, head science officer n supervisor. they work in small group. sharing story n love to come to the lab where i am be placed. since i didnt get my grant yet, so i dot have any progress on my master project much. just doing my subculturing n some mini experiment myself. thus i hv so many many many time pretend in front my laptop like u r very busy studying the journal. haha whut everla.. my supervisor also didnt say anything if seeing my updating fesbook or listerning radio or watching utube or whut ever. ohh yeahh im so lucky la kan.  i guess she realized me so bored sit in the lab n repeating the same routine everyday. 

she is sporting, funky, happy n all out person. also the both staff.. ok la.. if they around i never get so alone ranger in the lab. they love sharing their experience on what life it is. (feeling so great) ehh please be sure that ur supervisor have grant for the project before u decided to work under them ok. dont repeating my mistake... if not u will become like me la. 

ok. about my course?

for sure is new for me to make concentration in medical science esp parasitolgy &  microbiology. last time im only focus in general scope.now?   more to seek what benefit ur project to patient or medical clinical novel. they dont care much what you will doing in term of mechanism of method much.. they will seek why n whut. they love asking in clinical case since they are mostly from medical doctor student. oh crab. during the presentation in clinical case i got so many term to asking. haha same goes with my bestfriend.. she also in same boat with me. so funny when they talking in medical way n we say o we oh we oh we oh  (^^)

instead of crying or sad with the problem or whut ever challenge i get thru, actually we try made or day more enjoyable, funky, happy n get more positive way to release all the negative.

some said when we learn to breath n work in properly.. we actually cultivate an abundance of energy. yes i think that energy inspired us to work-out when its is a natural, take easy,, enjoy it.. hehe fill the moment with exciting activity :)in time as ur body heals and ur mind vitalizes.. u will find urself more feel good. the key is positive. yeahh lets your body adapts to meet the demands of new environment :)

since im not busy with the project yet, im trying to put more agenda in my life. i hate to be in one state which doing nothing. so to get rid of the situation, i love going outside hang out with super duper bff. during my weekend, im totally use it very3 much with my friend, we travel a lot, we eat a lot and explore the new roads as this new place to me to drive. explore the roads and many place with/without gps. damn my hp didnt hv gud gps. lucky i have my soulmate to read me the maps from google while im driving, hahahaha 

we singing hanging walking eating and doing in all the line. making new friend here even-thought in small number of them.they are superb n crazy like me. yeahh thanks made my day. only with the bff the fools and crazy thing u can done in public . (^^)

taken yesterday in tasik titiwangsa :)

(exercise with walking at recreation site :) helping me a lot to be postive :p imma to lazy person to made exercise like jogging, so i love have window shopping, n done this kind matter.

oh why me so lazy to get rid the fatty family inside me? hahaha  )

i love them all. there is more picture but this enough to describe my life now :) im faizah. im trying much to positive n positive. they motivate me. they give me hope to stand stil

please remember that making friend is about putting urself out there. they made me success in finding who are interested in all the weird things u like to do. that or u trying new things you've never tried before. that is i call them #ohsembff

to family, the loved one.. dont worry there stil huge hope inside

i will try my best :)

yes im messy

messy is out of control, maybe that’s it.

dis is a trauma after math thing:

learning to be ok with being out of control, n with what new growth can emerge from that release.

yesterday, I felt no control over those tears, they came up fast and immediate and were suddenly there —

this is ongoing learning,

how I let myself just be in all those different places, feel exactly what im feeling, remind myself, my inside selves, n even the people around

me (should they wonder or worry):

it’s ok, im ok, even when i look not ok.

even when im messy.

walking down the memory lane

its been a long time i guess

sumtime remember da darkness in my past

bringing back these memories, i wish i never had

sumtime i think of letting go, n never looking back

never moving forward so, there wud never be a past

come on la... past is past

that wut people said about it.. some may even completely leave their past behind

and go on living just for today n tomorrow

they dont even show their care bout da past... not keeping in mind that the past is da reason why we r here in present.. i mean now... or it can be for da future

but..

some memory need to be erased.. need to be forgotten.. need to be throw in dark place

no matter what how much i try to put away da memories which remind me so many thing dear to me

which they came back almost immediately

its kind of heartless..

i wont blame my self for all da feeling that i've felt

sumtime i hate when everyone not around me.. or they sleeps... no one to talk to

owhhh my Lord.. no distraction so silence is deafening, and deafening silence induces some sort of self reflection.

then

~~i’ve cried and cried for my broken dreams~~~

then starting making da kerepek one in this blog

this song credit to myself

It’s easier to run
Replacing this pain with something numb
It’s so much easier to go
Than face all this pain here all alone

Something has been taken
From deep inside of me
A secret I’ve kept locked away
No one can ever see
Wounds so deep they never show
They never go away
Like moving pictures in my head
For years and years they’ve played

If I could change I would
Take back the pain I would
Retrace every wrong move that I made I would
If I could take all the shame to the grave I would

Sometimes I remember
The darkness of my past
Bringing back these memories
I wish I didn’t have
Sometimes I think of letting go
And never looking back
And never moving forward so
There would never bee a past

Just washing it aside
All of the helplessness inside
Pretending I don’t feel misplaced
Is so much simpler than change

It’s easier to run replacing this pain with something numb
It’s so much easier to go
Than face all this pain here all alone

ak kna smpuk dek korean lg

♥♥ demam korea? batuk korea? selsema korea? ♥♥

seorang teman pernah bagitau kat aku satu masa dulu tapi takdelah la lama sangat masa tu. katanya, "orang perempuan yang minat citer2 korea dan lagu2 korea biasanya baik2." wah... mana la dia tahu. bijak benar dia membuat jangkaan. atas dasar apakah? atau sangkaannya itu memang benar? lihat saja contoh terdekat iaitu AKU. sila jangan geli tekak.

yay, entry ini mungkin x segah kisah tom dipukul atau sehangat lagu mizz nina itu tapi, adakah aku ambil kisah?

sekarang baru la aku perasan bahawa di malaysia ini begitu ramai sukakan KOREA n KOREAN. dalam radio pom dah main lagu2 korea. bukak era dengar lagu nobody. bukak hot.fm kadang2 terdengar jugak lagu shock daripa beast. auuu.. i luvvv beast... zaman aku dulu (takdelah seabad yang lalu) nak dengar orang cakap bahasa korea pun payah. sebabnya, kat tv selalu main cerita indon, industan, kdg2 thailand dan kadang2 filipina. cerita korea ada tapi biasanya dah dialih bahasa.

tapi why kita minat korea? adakah sebab jejaka2 dan gadis2 dari sana jambu, cun, menawan, gorjes, cute, mulus, ramping , hensem, putih lagi melepak, gebu atau sebagainya? hurm... kelihatannya seperti penampilan fizikal semata yang berjaya mencuri tumpuan. tapi adakah benar?

adakah sebab kami cute?

is it because of my curly hair?

mahal u noe nak buat kat salon..

atau kerana kemisterian ai?

of course sebab ai funny kan?

tapi ini memang rambut + jambang - misai ai punye member yang bagi pinjam.

adakah sebab mata seksi ai atau selipar merah ai?

yeaayyyy demam korea dtg lg...;)

agk lame ye ak menyepiii ngn cheta or drama korea

lebey kurang 3 sem gara2 khusyukkk ngn study

konon la kannnn

ok you're beatiful

wahhh thu tak nape ak suka cheta niyhhh

sbb nye kannn

- tajuk dye puji ak...*smbil wt muka ayu ;)

-plakon dye sehensem jiran ak mse ak duk korea dlu

-jln verita dye sme ngn makcik temah yg pena jual karipap

(ok suma tu outa blaka)

hahahaha

*ade ak kesahhhh

dahhh minat..seyes klo ta kerana adeq2 ak bkeras ati na lawan ak rebut rem0te tv.. ta denye tgerak ati ak na kmbali aktif kt depan tv ni wehhh.. :) sumpa nokxxx i kan dak baik

kat u i mne i tgk tv sgt....(walhal sbb mse awl2 duk uma sewa ta ckup duit na bli tv plasma)

;( kecewaakannnn)

kekecewaan tu terubat bila adeq ak dunlod siap2 cheta ni agr ta rse keciwa tuk balik ostel...

ermmmm klo ta sure2 la tetingal

kul 8.30 di 8tv ok.... senin smpai jumaat

*haruss diowang kasi cikit royalti sbb ak promote

hahaha ;)

haha muka slumber je demo niyhhh tp chumill

ape mknenye tgk drama ta de hero..

~~jang geun suk~~

jln cheta is simple but present tense.. haha pe ak ngrut niyhhh...

sipnosis dye gini

A.N.JELL adalah group band yang terdiri dari 3 personil Hwang Tae Kyung vocal n leader, Kang Shin Woo bass dan Jeremy drum. Presiden An pimpinan A.N entertaiment (label recordnya A.N.JELL) mencari 1 anggota baru untuk A.N.JELL dan terpilih lah Go Mi Nam. Kebetulan saat itu, Go Mi Nam sedang sakit sehingga tidak dapat menandatangani kontrak dan tampil di depan umum. Akhirnya, Manager Ma (manager Go Mi Nam) membujuk Go Min Nyu (Gemma) untuk menggantikan Go Mi Nam. Selama kurang lebih 1 bulan Gemma harus berperan menjadi Go Mi Nam, tinggal se-rumah bersama ketiga anggota A.N.JELL. Awal keberadaan “Mi Nam” di markasnya A.N.JELL tidak disambut baik oleh Tae Kyung yang memang tidak setuju masuknya anggota baru. Lucunya, sejak Tae Kyung bertemu “Mi Nam” ada saja kesialan yang terjadi padanya. Sampai pada suatu ketika secara tak sengaja Tae Kyung mendengar percakapan “Mi Nam” dengan penata rias A.N.JELL yang tidak lain adalah teman manager Ma, sejak itu Tae Kyung tahu bahwa “Mi Nam” adalah seorang gadis. Tae Kyung pun mendesak Mi Nam untuk mengaku pada Presiden An dan keluar dari A.N.JELL, awalnya “Mi Nam” ingin menyerah saja tapi Manager Ma membujuknya untuk melanjutkan penyamaran agar “Mi Nam” bisa menemukan ibunya . Seiring berjalannya waktu Tae Kyung tanpa sadar telah jatuh hati pada “Mi Nam” dan selalu berusaha melindungi “Mi Nam” begitupun “Mi Nam” yang merasakan sengatan listrik jika berada di dekat Tae Kyung. Di sisi lain, Shin Woo yang sedari awal curiga dan menyadari bahwa “Mi Nam” adalah seorang wanita, dia pun diam-diam menyukainya sedangkan Jeremy selalu merasa “aneh” ketika dekat “Mi Nam” menyangka “Mi Nam” punya kelainan alias homo tapi diapun akhirnya menyukai “Mi Nam” dan terjadilah sedikit persaingan antara 3 A.N.JELL dalam memperebutkan hati “Mi Nam” ^_^’. Namun,
kedekatan Tae Kyung dan “Mi Nam” selalu dihalangi oleh Yoo Hye Yi yang menyukai Tae Kyung. Berbagai cara dilakukan untuk menaklukan hati Hwang Tae Kyung tapi sia-sia saja usahanya karena Tae Kyung sama sekali tidak tertarik padanya.

haha ak kopi o tarik je dri belog mmber yg synopsis ni ha..

ape2 pun jiwa ak da thp keazaman yg tggi tuk chete korea

(((((love it so much)

ak redha

Ya Allah..
Tatkala hati ini mula mgharap..
Kau beri aku satu lagi ujian...
sungguh aku tidak sekuat mana..

Ya Allah,
Tatkala hati ini mula mencipta impian..
Kau lemparkan aku rasa keinsafan & kesedihan..
betapa aku hambaMu.. yg kerdil..

Ya Allah,
Tatkala hatiku ini mula memasang cita2..
Kau sedarkan aku sesuatu..
Betapa aku cuma siapa disisiMu..

Allahuakbar....
apakah yg bakal berlaku ini Ya Allah..
jika inilah ujianMu sebelum aku mdapat nikmatMu yg tidak terhingga itu,
dengan penuh rela & redha hati, maka aku laluinya..


Ya Allah yg Maha Mengasihi..
berikan aku satu hati yg kuat & cekal.. utk aku ampuh semua ini...
kerna hatiku ini hati wanita dan sesekali pasti terbit juga air mata..

Ya Allah Ya Tuhanku,
Tatkala Kau lemparkan segala rasa ini padaku..
Ku cuba bangkit dalam kelemahanku..
Ku cuba baiki atas apa yg aku mampu..
aku bersedia membaiki & di baiki..

Ya Allah,
aku tetap percaya segala yg terbaik itu pasti dtg pada saat & ketika yg tepat..
Hanya dgn izinMu ianya termakbul..
walau aku sedar aku cuma siapa dikalangan hambaMu, namun hanya kepadaMu aku mohon segala yg terbaik utk semua..

maka sesungguhnya aku redha Ya Allah utk atas apa sekalipun ketentuanMu sebelum & selepas ini.

bgkisan dri seorang teman

bila chenta ini hya untuk DIA

mmbaca blog rakan buat ku sedar, ta sepatutnya ak punyai perasaan kt sesiapa pun tika n wktu ini,, n ta perlu bersedih tuk seorang yg bukan milik ak... yakin shaja hya seorang yg akn dtg.. mgkin tlh temui n mgkin tdak

teringat ustad mse ak g kuliah mgrib, chenta ta perlu dikejar, krna smpai stu masnya hya perlukan usaha yg sedikit tuk dptkannya...

tp mnyedari hakikat chenta ikhlas dn suci yg kekal hya lah pd Maha Pencipta... haruz ak sedar... segalanya dtg dripadaNya,,, nlah kasih syg yg ku kecapi hgga saat ini jua milikNya,,, bsyukur sgt2 sbb di beri pinjam seketika perasaan cinta, kasih, rindu dn syg...

ini kembaraku...

inginku kembara mncari harapan ke nur yg menenangkan..

kembara di bumi Dia Ya Rabbi..

aku tidak tahu kenapa.. semakin hari semakin kuat desakan hati...

semakin kuat persoalan2 ttg diri.. tunduk sayu mengisafi..siapa aku di bumi Allah ini..

gerak hati semakin kuat.. keinginan sederap kecekalan..

menyedari betapa banyaknya kekurangan ini..

mengisafi hakikat diri..

pekara2 lain telah kucuba adakan pada diri, walau ia tidaklah segah mana..

tapi kenapa tidak yg ini..

sesungguhnya aku mula mencuba...

sesungguhnya langkah2 kecil telah ku mulakan..

InsyaAllah suatu hari nanti pasti nampak bezanya..

tidak salah aku rasa... kalau aku dambakan semua ini..

aku tidak malu utk mahu semua itu...

kerna itulah syariat Dia kepada semua dibumi ini..

walau diri tidak sehebat mana..

walau diri byk sekali kekuranganya..

walau diri cuma siapa..

kepada dia yg aku tercipta dari rusuk kirinya..

tariklah tanganku..

terimalah aku seadanya...

didiklah aku segalanya...

pimpinlah aku jua...

bawalah aku bersama2..

dalam mendapatkan redha Ilahi...

kepada dia yg aku tercipta dari rusuk kirinya..

cinta & kasih ini utk kamu..

bila adanya aku sebagai suri.. InsyaAllah kamu tidak kecewa..

ada kasih dalam jiwa utk aku beri pada kamu..

percayalah di setiap bahagia,sihat,gembira,tenang kamu pasti ada aku..

percayalah disetiap sedih,sakit, perit, kamu juga pasti ada aku..

sesungguhnya aku terus menanti sambil membaiki kelemahan diri..

aku yakin & percaya dirimu itu ada utk aku...

dan pasti Allah temui kita pada saat & ketika yg tepat!

doa & sangkaan yg baik2 saja dari aku...

i do miss u

yes
i do miss him damn so muchh
tp pe je ak na wat. sekadar memndang n rindu
eeuuu tetiba mlm2 gini bnada sydu

mishhh u a lot la
seyes.. td jengah suma pkara tntg dye
tetiba mood rajin dtg
owhh pekehal tahhh

pena ta kowang da taip msg pnjg2 kt phone last2 ta anta pun
terus delete sbb ta brani
then wat muka chumill pura2 ta de ap yg blaku


tp mmpu kew
mujur ta perlu bdepan selalu atopun mmg da ta klihatan da pun kt mata niyh
klo tak sah jiwa ni meroyann

muchoo muchh gracias

its been for a while that i didnt post any entry here n there~~~ exam mood??? yeahh mebi la.. perhaps evertything wud be ok... *lalala need to remove all da book n word from my brain 4 a while

heyy im so kejam??? huhuhu

im not a da best writer to gv ta bombastic word. im not a good person to gv a syarahan, im not yet good friend since i coundnt satisfied whut u want, im not a good thing that u cn call me boneka

yet im only myself........

in life, u shud be thnkful fo da presence of any person that making ur day beautiful

eventhough in da end u may hurt their feeling n its vise versa..

*feeling not easy rite??

as im a normal human being, i make a mistake, n even if it is not forgivable, they are irreversible

if cannot make u fell better, ok... im so sorry.. i never to mean it

*seem u cn put blame on me


i hv learnt that acceptance is the key to a successful relationship,be it any relationship ;friendship, brotherhood, sisterhood.they all do.they need a common thing ;ACCEPTANCE

i have also learnt that once you forgive,you have to FORGET.well,not entirely.just don't let it fade away from ur memory box,so that someday u will use the INCIDENT back for ur own reminder.

next ;love is not all about possessing.even if i don't possess someone,doesn't mean i don't love him/her.i always cling tightly to the principle ; we are borrowing each other from ALLAH,we don't own each other.

lastly ; an individual is the best protector of his own heart,with the help from the Almighty who always holds your heart.nobody else does.


maybe i myself have failed to realize these lessons.thank u experience for teaching these lessons to me.

to all,I'm sorry for my wrongdoings,sincerely because of Allah.n thank you for every single thing.i will forget ur shortcomings,i'll remember your good deeds :)

*hope u too meyhh

choommeyyy... na ank juga cm diowang niyhh =p

GILLAA bombastic tetiba sebut nak anak kat cnie.. haha!! * maaf yee tetiba ak ley terkeluar statement nie* ;psaja nak gedix sat... Hhha!! =) actually kan.. smalam tetiba BW, pastuh kan terjumpa bebudak nie... Ya Allah sangat laa chomey dorang nie... betul ayat dalam Quran yang kata " bayi yang baru lahir d'ibaratkan sesuci kain putih dan xternilai harga'y".... Wwwawa pe kena laa plak dgn ku pepagi nie pun xtaw laa...

tapi yang pelik, nape laa zaman sekarang nie sesetengah manusia xley nak hargai pemberian TUHAN yang xternilai nie... ape dorang nie bodoh sangat ke?? nak kata xp sekolah, ade yang belajar tinggi2... tp ntah laa~ Pusing!! hurmm~ pape jer laa kan.. masing2 dah besar, ade otak... pk laa sniri bek buruk sesuatu benda tuh kan...

x pe hope korang ley layan jer entry nie...=)

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tapi feveret part adalah : dengan budak nie... ntah camner ak ley falling in love dengan ke''chomey''lan dorang....teruja laa plak tengok... haha!! pas tengok terus jerit : "wWaaa chomey!! aku nak camnie gak nanT!!! haha gila kan???!!" :D

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bulat mata dy :)

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gebu pipi nyer:. :)

haha lucu..

hurmmm~ kecik2 dah pandai bergaya... sapa yg ajar dy pun xtaw laa... ;D

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dan bila dy besar, ak doakan anak-anak ak jadi orang yang soleh & solehah, hormat orang tua-tua especially dy xlupakan parent dy, n jadi anak yang berguna pada sume... ~AMIN~ :)

suka lor ak tengok kamOo sume nie syg!! :))

KOMEN HATI SAYA: perrgggh nie statement maut laa plak yang terkeluar... tetiba terasa nak jadi mama hri nie jugak.. haha!! kita sepatut'y hargai bayi, budak n anak-anak...dorang nie xde salah langsung dengan kita... tp nape perlu kita jadikan dorg mangsa keadaan kita.. so, moral of the story, sebagai manusia kita sepatut'y bersyukur d'beri peluang untuk menjaga insan yang bernama "ANAK" nie... kasih sayang untuk anak-anak sangat laa penting.. Insyallah klaw kita berjaya didik dorg, myB dorg pulak yang akan berjasa dengan kita 1 ary nanti...=))

::nakk kahwinn::

Boleh ek tetiba ak rs nak letak title gitu "nak kawin!!" .. haha... kang ade plak kawan2 yg sms "yerker?" "bila nyer" ,,, ish ish ish ... kalo nak kawin mesti la akbgtau punye...lebih2 kat closed frens yg suke amik tau hal ak ... utk kawan2 yg x nak tau hal aku, aku diam2 jek la.. hehe... Bila ckp pasal kawin ni ak mula la pening, x tentu arah & pk mcm2... Pernah sekali adeq ak tanyer "ngah, ko x der nafsu nak kawin ker" ...HOTAK HANG!!! giler ker giler!! hahaha... of course la nak kawin!!! (dlm nada gatai miang keladi) .. opsssss!! sblm tu, ak nk highlight sikit yer, kawin di sini bermaksud nikah+kawin ok... ade org kang bila sebut pasal kawin ni dieorg kata kawin sll nikah jek belum....ish ish ish ... ape daaaa...boleh gitu plak yekk (masing2 punye hal la kan... kte tok sah nyibuk)

Tp kan bila ckp pasal kawin, ak terpk "Dgn sapa aku nak kawin ek"... "Ermm...ade ke org nak kawin dgn ak ni" .. Chupe2!! Entry ni bukan nak mempromote diri sendri tp sj2 jek nak buat luahan perasaan, cewaahhh!! huhu... tp kan, kalo nak kawin ni bukan ke benda terpenting+teragung dlm life.. x kan la main sebarang jek nak kawin kan... x kan la petik jari berduyun2 jejaka yg dtg ... Kalo ak ni secantik erra fazira ker, x pn segedik fazura ker, mungkin la kot... tp ni plain gal jek .. sapa jer la mau kan? hehehe (wah... kang ramai plak yg apply nak jd kekasih ak plak kang... naya!!) adoiii perasan abes kan.. dush3

Cam biase la, org sll tanyer "bila nak kawin ni?" sampai dh kebal telinga ni tau ... sume alasan ak dh bg, sampai dh x tau nak create alasan ape lagi pasni ..hihi.. utk kawan2 yg memahami, syukur alhamdulillah.. utk kawan2 yg concern/caring/menyibuk -> ak x der jawapan muktamad... sure jawapan ak akan berubah2.. hihi... AK X TAU NAK JAWAB APE!!! (boleh???) tp kan, jgn pulak ade yg terasa bila ak sebut menyibuk tu .. ak tau korang concern+caring, tp kan kalo dh sll sgt tanyer bukan ker tu dh tahap menyibuk!! hehe... tp x kisah la, kalo mood aku baik sure ak jawab dlm keadaan yg plg baik.. kalo idak, rasakan jer la kelaseran ak ... (peace :)

waaa rse mau kawen bila tgk busana2 bju yg liplap2 mcm lampu raya... tak pun wane2 tema yg secun alam... (dlm keadaan waras ye yg niyhh).. sungguh. dpt je undangan kwn kawen.. mak ai tecabar minda beb... walopun lg seminggu na besday ak yg twenty fes (aduhhh muda ag kew pk sal kawen wktu umo ni??) tape2.. t smpai la msa tuk ak

Ape2 pn, jgn risau kawan2 ku ..sampai masa ak akan jemput semuanye ke majlis tu nnt ... doa2 kan la yek kalo korang dlm kategori kawan yg caring+concern... moga ak bertemu jodoh yg terbaik :) org kata yg terbaik sll nye lmbat ek....yeker? konon2 la kan... hehehe....

Daaaaaaaa (lapar sgt2.. tp mau tdo dlu)

mnusia ni unik tp rumit

Dunia Nih Unik! Manusia Nih Rumit! Hidup Nih Umpama Catur!

Dunia nih adakalanya kita rasa besar dan adalakalanya kita rasa kecil sangat. Berpusing - pusing dan kemudian terjumpa maka terasa dunia nih kecil! Tapi bila disuruh berjalan terasa besarnya dunia yang sedang dihuni seketika nih.

Manusia nih pula pada pandangan mata kasar nampak sama. Ada tangan. Ada kaki. Ada hidung. Kadang - kadang nampak tak sama bila tengok bentuk rambut. Bila tengok warna kulit. Bila tengok saiz badan. Lagi tak sama bila dilihat dari segi sikap, perangai atau kejernihan hati.

Hidup pula umpama catur. Kita sendiri yang menggerakkannya dan semestinya kita tak mampu nak berpatah balik bila kita dah mengorak langkah. Kadang - kadang kita terpaksa mementingkan diri untuk maju ke hadapan. Kadang - kadang kita perlu ambil risiko untuk mendapatkan apa yang kita nak.

Bila kita tersalah membuat pilihan maka kita perlulah memilih antara dua jalan yang seterusnya. Sama ada kita mampu menyelesaikan masalah itu atau kita lari dari masalah. Mungkin kita melarikan diri daripada masalah atau masalah itu hilang dengan sendiri.

Kita boleh percaya pada sesetengah manusia. Ada manusia yang kita memang langsung tidak boleh percaya. Jangan disangka wajah yang baik itu semestinya baik. Jangan disangka wajah yang ganas itu sememangnya jahat. Pada awal semuanya tampak manis. Bagai orang sedang bercinta! Kentut sebusuk mana pun dikatanya wangi bak kasturi. Namun, bila sudah tak tertahan maka yang dahulunya dikatakan indah itu pastinya akan terus dinyatakan buruk.

Sememangnya kita perlu mengambil tahu perihal orang - orang disekeliling supaya kita tidak tersalah langkah. Tidak perlu bermuka - muka kerana nanti perkara yang sama berlaku kepada anda. Tidak perlu terlalu tamak kerana hidup ini sememangnya perkongsian. Tidak perlu berasa diri itu terlalu bagus kerana jika bagus anda tidak perlu datang belajar. Jangan anggap anda bijak kerana jika bijak tempat anda bukan disini. Dan jangan berkata orang ini bagus dan orang itu tidak kerana akhirnya orang sekeliling boleh lihat siapa yang betul dan siapa yang salah.

Sememangnya diriku ini telah tersalah langkah namun seperti mana yang aku taip aku tidak boleh berpatah balik. Dan sekarang dihadapan aku ada dua buah jalan. Jalan pertama melarikan diri daripada masalah dan jalan kedua menghadapi masalah itu dengan cara yang sebaiknya. Aku mahu saja berjalan diantara kedua - dua jalan itu namun tiada jambatan yang menghubung. Maka jalan selamat aku pilih jalan kedua.

totally sad n whut???

maybe its because um da kind of sick where my hearts is hurt.......but i feel like everything i am doing is wrong all da time..yeahh im not happy rite now.. totally not happy.. but yet im still trying cry with da smile face..

i hv been feeling more alone than i had in a while, even with my frends.. im sorry if this may hurt u. more introverted. i am adjusting. still, sometimes when ibelieve one hundred percent for sure in things, n something happens differently than i expected, i feel no confidence in myself at all...

really weird feeling until my self keep asking am i to cruel to you... i dont know why. but i believe u judge me on da bad thing from ur sight. n thinking nothing to myself, im crying n cying... like a little cat crying too... cat know to cry?? huh..

i guess i shud never against what my parent n family said.. i suppose to take note what they hv been told me.. yet now im regretting whut happen n gonna be.. nothing to be worry ask my walid olwez said to me cauase Allah is by ur side .....

i hv read some blog on da title how DOA solved all da problem n change my life... it so touche''d... now i feel i am not alone suffering a lot personal problem

msg from my frenz

"just be patient and trust allah. bad phase comes in everyones life and after every bad phase there is a good phase. everything will be fine. u will be a very happy person very soon. inshallah"

thnks a lot ya....

by da way

i just want u to know that when i was sad and down over this i opened the quran and came across the translation of surah sharh where they say " inna maa al usri yusra" which is repeated 2 times. it means verily after every hardship there is relief. this is mentioned twice in a row.

D\do u know wat this means my frenz? the quran is the word of Allah subhana wataalah. He has promised you a relief after your hardship.

There is Allah everywhere. He is the only one who can fix anything.

Your prayers are not wasted. no dua is ever wasted. you will see the reward of your dua soon inshallah. just be patient. engage in zikr and quran. specially la hawla wala quwata illa billah. inshallah u will see the results soon. be patient faizah,,,