walking down the memory lane

its been a long time i guess

sumtime remember da darkness in my past

bringing back these memories, i wish i never had

sumtime i think of letting go, n never looking back

never moving forward so, there wud never be a past

come on la... past is past

that wut people said about it.. some may even completely leave their past behind

and go on living just for today n tomorrow

they dont even show their care bout da past... not keeping in mind that the past is da reason why we r here in present.. i mean now... or it can be for da future

but..

some memory need to be erased.. need to be forgotten.. need to be throw in dark place

no matter what how much i try to put away da memories which remind me so many thing dear to me

which they came back almost immediately

its kind of heartless..

i wont blame my self for all da feeling that i've felt

sumtime i hate when everyone not around me.. or they sleeps... no one to talk to

owhhh my Lord.. no distraction so silence is deafening, and deafening silence induces some sort of self reflection.

then

~~i’ve cried and cried for my broken dreams~~~

then starting making da kerepek one in this blog

this song credit to myself

It’s easier to run
Replacing this pain with something numb
It’s so much easier to go
Than face all this pain here all alone

Something has been taken
From deep inside of me
A secret I’ve kept locked away
No one can ever see
Wounds so deep they never show
They never go away
Like moving pictures in my head
For years and years they’ve played

If I could change I would
Take back the pain I would
Retrace every wrong move that I made I would
If I could take all the shame to the grave I would

Sometimes I remember
The darkness of my past
Bringing back these memories
I wish I didn’t have
Sometimes I think of letting go
And never looking back
And never moving forward so
There would never bee a past

Just washing it aside
All of the helplessness inside
Pretending I don’t feel misplaced
Is so much simpler than change

It’s easier to run replacing this pain with something numb
It’s so much easier to go
Than face all this pain here all alone