pliz wake up faeza~~dis life is not a games

alhamdulillah da past 2 week bring me a lot thing to remember. to noted it and rethink back again n again. just need some beautiful air flow to let me breath some fresh air in peaceful mood. common faizah.. u just need think positive not too much until all them turn scary negative illusion.

what?? my life sometime too much miserable and uncontrol. dont know where shud i begin since too much pressure until force me down to earth. (ok too much faaizah.. now u start again think dat ngative one stopp it.. oh dear be ur self not what ur self try put on you.. the insider never let it ?? or it just u want it be a reason

i cud see da pixca of perfect memories that scattered all around .. reaching for what some time i tried before to asking my self too.. wonder if i cud ever cross the mind i tried to carry on but still something missing inside .. really need some show me or give me in kinda sign ... ya Allah im still me.. yet me also stil i am

so many question ya Allah.. where things left unsaid until so much confusion going trough in my head. ya Allah i should'nt far from u.. this was da reason why i felt so many reason that just dont make sense. this one make me so weak day by day.. feeling being unwanted too small n keep losing the someone i love around.. hey faizah.. u shud know that nothing be so perfect and permanent

every single thing is belong to Him. belong to Allah..

subhanaAllah.. everything so perfectly match and thnks to Allah

sometime i chooze da wrong but always hv a reason why and why

ya Allah, i know i've gone too far from what You taught me.

forgive me.. ya Allah

do please guide me to go to the right path..

There's too much love in my heart that I know it wont last...

no matter how i want it badly, i know You know better what best for me.

You know better what has been wrot in Luh Mahfuz

please help me to get through this Ya Allah

amin..ya Rabbalaalamin

faizah mohd hanapiah
1.35 a.m.

7 February 2012

monolog hati dak fyp

Assalamulaikum >>

masyaAllah rase lama ta mnjengah dunia blog bagai.. sekadar sempat mmbaca blog orang lain.. haish tah la ta sempat rasanya na buat sama. Betul la org kata bila dah de FYP mmg segalanya2 ta sempat... bukan sbb bizi 24 jam pun sbb jd telalu mls da.. haha mgkin juga org kata ujian jd plajar tahur akhir

mlihat jendela pelangi hidup ranya semakin dekat dengan tarikh 19 febuari bukan? Debarnya saya.. eh sabar2 jgn slh phm bukan tarihkh penting kawen ke tunang ke.. belum ke arh itu buat masa ini. Smakin melangkah saya di SEM 6 dimana sem akhir tuk degree saya. Diam ta diam rupanya saya da 5 sem duk di bumi matahari terik kuala Terengganu

siapa sgka minah yg PEMALAS ni da berada di stu puncak lg kmbara hidup sebagai pelajar.. eh ayat ta nak skema kan.. (^^) poyo lebeh je..

ramai yg kahwen anda bila lagi.. ehh sy sangat dah lali dgn ayat tu.. rse na tulis je kat dahi eh sy single la.. hahaha (ni sekadar iklan ). Jika sy hitung berapa lgkah telah saya buat tah bpe kalori je yg mmpu di buang.. mlihat awn2 nano berlagu sne sni lgsung tad pt sy ertikan dengan perjalann sy smasa dsini

mulai rsa debaran kerinduan yang bakal berlaku.. merungkai lg satu episode perpisahan apabila tamat je sem 6 nnati (makkk aii sem 6 ta masuk lg ak da start tacing) klo sy kira la pengalaman.. hurm mgkin setebal lemak dibadan sy amaknya... eeeeee yekkk apakhh..

berbalik pada kesebikan sy dngn fyp adakalanya perasaan tersungkur itu perlu sebelum sy jatuh.. perasaan takut itu perlu sebelum sy hadapi sesuatu.. smuanya mmpu mgerakan seluruh fizikal emosi sy tuk mlakukan persediaan dri... kita ta semestinya di atas dan bila di atas ta semestinya kita ta jatuh... perit itu perlu jika anda seorang pelajar kerana disitu letaknya kemanisan bila berjihat mnuntut ilmu.

mnjalani hidup sbg amoebasitter benar2 mguji kesabaran ku sbgai mak org.. menatang haiwan2 kecil yg ta nmpk dimata tp telekat di minda adakalanya mgundang rasa lelah dan penat.. hanya bermodalkan PYG medium serta T shape flask.. ank2 kecil mmpu ku jaga dlm buaian incubator.. hadoiii untung lha sy jaga awk ngn tekun ...

alhamdulillah isu contamination smemangnya tdk boleh dijadikan alasan.. precaution step shud be more alert when we re step da method.. take tyme la juga na mnyetelkan.... tp sy blajar erti SABAR dan TELITI . wondering how a messy gurl need to be a PERfect gurl..