the drop of tears

heyy im think im gonna shut this blog

suppose to be since long time ago

why ek????

hurmmm wudd think it later

seyes ta rase perlu pun hambur suma perasaan kt sni.. de ke yg mmnbaca n terbaca?? ade ke yg kesah ato bkesah???? ato ade ke yg mmbantu pd yg perlu??? tak bukan?? we justt sit on less than 5 minutes to read then later nothing... nothing we can do.. nothing that we done

so im thnking the purpose why i shud clariified my life here n here.. tell them bout wht i going through bout da distance n the road that i taken in the journey.. the scene where i cried so much in my life seem many as compared the scene that i laugh....

the journey still far to go as the day that i QUIT from this live... need much suffer n pain to get me have better scene.. i mean happy time. this life taught me to cry for let me create the smile.... this life taught me pain n suffer to let me create something different

yes.. something different

that i couldnt distinguish that yet

something that i cudnt open the keyy yet

the key of my life.. the key of my heart..the key that will show me whut im going to do n its all about what i wanted the most in this life...

heyyy la tafzan.... la tafzan.. i just smile in frozen moment when they asking me dont be sad...i wishes that i cud stop cry inside too even my tears end. i can see my tears drop by drop but how bout tears from heart.. that i couldnt see n i dont know how they stop n began.....

did u realize???? that they dropped my tears so much

much muchh muchh

im just me.....

here at last i think im alive again, well a bit a decade since da last post that i create rite?? it just me... just being simple, hard n much emotioanal. i dont understand y sumtime people get da wrong idea bout me. I am not sure exactly where they get their ideas from. but, i guess we are all guilty of making assumptions about sumone based on one small thing instead of his/her bigger pixca

usually its in a flattering way: people who think that im capable of doing much more than I actually can or who think that i somehow manage to do it all. i don’t… and not by a long shot.

sumetimes its in a not so flattering way, but it’s my blog and idon’t feel like addressing those certain people. So im choosing not to....i don’t quite know what to do about the unrealistic expectations that are sumtimes put on me.

becoz im just me... n becoz sumtime i think thattttttt:::::::::::

im silly......

i get cranky when i’m tired or hungry...

i don’t have much tolerance for mean people....

i get hurt by rude things that are said....

i want to believe the best in people...

im devastated when someone betrays me......

i cry easily..

i get hurt easily....

bcoz im not so perfect, full of weakness.... thus im hurting others rite

so that only i cn do.. just a person whom sumtime get so lonely heart even full of love, just a person whom u call a friend... just a person whom u cal enemy... i cant change ur judgement for me...