when u g0t t0o much t0 say

sometimes when u have too much to say,

u ended up not saying anything at all.

do u experience that a lot?

yeahh i am experiencing it, right now,

with all these 3 m0re work t0 d0 so... omggg deepest apology.

why why why am i like this?

last time when iwas so occupied with other things,

at the end of the day i would still make time to write.

makeke time?

making watches and clocks lah now?

i meant, FIND time to write.

but now, once i have finished my work

i straight away go to bed.

eh STRAIGHT AWAY, really?

Not really,

but you get my point.

all I want now is GETTING BETTER SLEEP.

GOTTA GO NOW.

MAKING TIME FOR MY physically rest

make time?

making watches and clocks lah nowww??

**pe benda la ak ngarut**

st0p it n0w..

d0nt dis krepek thing again n again

nite all

hepi besday MJ

hepi besday to you..

hepi besday to you..

hepi besday to....

MJ

Hepi besday to you....

May Allah bless you..

'

nie la besday girl..

belated besday bena

tomeynya dia snyum..:)))

kami doakan wak mj nie sentiasa senyum slalu..

bahagia di smping fmily tcnta n owg tersyg..

sucess in STUDY n LIFE..(^_^)

Amin....

midsem over

bdw.. cuti mid sem da tamat... da over... ta de da

pling plang pling plang...

that all...

abess

so

-m0ve 0n ur goal .. (kna capai yg tu)

-c all da hope...

-lupakan makanan yg free kt uma

-ta bleh bwk balik rem0te astr0 lorhh (caner na tgk muvi niyhh)

-streamline is over... bB.. here i come

-no more bntal *wangi*.. ehem

- kna tgk fesbuk hari2 sbbna thu update klas n s0 on (alsan ta bley bla)

-kna jumpa pak mydin, incik giant, hock kee seng... means forget la MP, DP, JUSCO AEONS, MM,.... demam balik la gini

-ta leh tid0 sesuka hati

-ta leh bkak peti ais lg... plak ade

ta de dap0 yg pnuh makann yg shedap2...

c... h0w desperate nya

kna bepisah ngn cam bnda yg indah

tp kna redha sbb

kita kan

PELAJAR

bkn

PENANAM ANGGUR

so bepijak di bumi nyata

bumi maner???

bumi UMT

cerita disebalik pulangnya kami ke ganu

~~~~agenda satu~~~~

Hey.. bgun2..... *ma mnjerit*..rse mls je na bepisah ngn katil wal bntal $^&%&^&^& *cencored*tp kna bgun jugak meyhhh.. huhuhu harus lakan sbb *katanya* na mulakan pjalanan yg jauh.. ohhh damn... hati ni rse ta shedap jiwa la plak... ermm ta pe senyum je la bila disapa emak yg tya na btolak balik kul bpe... hehehhee ad udg sebalik mee goweng kowt...

~~~~agenda dua~~~~

Berada dlm keta rsenya jiwa sy ni mkin ta tntu hala.... rse terhunus dek pisau lembing buatan jeli la plak... ne tak nya ayh asik la beri amanat bagai tuk** pjalanan jau kami**... dlm duk men jeling2 ngn owg blkang...

~~~~agenda ketiga~~~

Yey,, sy da smpai ke rumah ryna.... ayh plak duk ck perm kul bpe na gerak niyhh smbil tgk jam da kul 9... (dlm hati tuhan je thu.. rse besalam mncgkam tanah rata).. sy tersenyum sumbing je la kowttt btmabh leret naya senyuman sy bila ayh pggil dtg smula ke keta tya eh awk na guna berapa.... *mata sy terlihat duit je* ngee... pastu tnpa segan bersilu sy kata ohh ta pe la.. ikut la ayh mo bg brapa.... ayh tediam.. beberapa keping not $$ diberikan.. *wahhhh besinar mata nmpak $$* bwu je pas slm ayh.. ayt tmbh lg sekeping not $$ bekenaan.... (m0k cik kaya ni wehh) ta de agenda tertendu hokeyhh.. s yank yyg baekkk.werrrkkkkkk (muntah drh jap)

~~~~agenda ketiga~~~

pas je mkn nasi berlemak di umah ryna,,, sy terduduk bisu n kelu melihat hp.. tetiba rse ruang tamu tu makin menintonk kan palewww... ok sy thu.. sy kna tepan walid sy g thu hal sebenar.. bebekalkan semanagat proton inspira (asik waja je.. sesekali kna tuka), sy tepon jua dye... setelah beberapa mnit *^%&%^#$@#@$E#%&^&*(*(&*^&%%#$@#@ (urusan sri paduka bginda,, _sulit) so ngn muka lega bwu kuar pnjara nya sy kata.. yeyyyy da g thu ayh... ayh kata ok.. lalalallalaa

~~~~agenda empat~~~~

Dlm LRT.... ermmmm ta bpe cun sgguh tyme tu... dan2 tyme ma tepon sy, kami da smpai station kt midberi... huahuahua.. terketar plak na g thu ma... *pdn muka sy kan*

~~~~agenda lima~~~

bsmbung nnti

cerita disebalik pulangnya kami ke ganu

~~~~agenda satu~~~~

Hey.. bgun2..... *ma mnjerit*..rse mls je na bepisah ngn katil wal bntal $^&%&^&^& *cencored*tp kna bgun jugak meyhhh.. huhuhu harus lakan sbb *katanya* na mulakan pjalanan yg jauh.. ohhh damn... hati ni rse ta shedap jiwa la plak... ermm ta pe senyum je la bila disapa emak yg tya na btolak balik kul bpe... hehehhee ad udg sebalik mee goweng kowt...

~~~~agenda dua~~~~

Berada dlm keta rsenya jiwa sy ni mkin ta tntu hala.... rse terhunus dek pisau lembing buatan jeli la plak... ne tak nya ayh asik la beri amanat bagai tuk** pjalanan jau kami**... dlm duk men jeling2 ngn owg blkang...

~~~~agenda ketiga~~~

Yey,, sy da smpai ke rumah ryna.... ayh plak duk ck perm kul bpe na gerak niyhh smbil tgk jam da kul 9... (dlm hati tuhan je thu.. rse besalam mncgkam tanah rata).. sy tersenyum sumbing je la kowttt btmabh leret naya senyuman sy bila ayh pggil dtg smula ke keta tya eh awk na guna berapa.... *mata sy terlihat duit je* ngee... pastu tnpa segan bersilu sy kata ohh ta pe la.. ikut la ayh mo bg brapa.... ayh tediam.. beberapa keping not $$ diberikan.. *wahhhh besinar mata nmpak $$* bwu je pas slm ayh.. ayt tmbh lg sekeping not $$ bekenaan.... (m0k cik kaya ni wehh) ta de agenda tertendu hokeyhh.. s yank yyg baekkk.werrrkkkkkk (muntah drh jap)

~~~~agenda ketiga~~~

pas je mkn nasi berlemak di umah ryna,,, sy terduduk bisu n kelu melihat hp.. tetiba rse ruang tamu tu makin menintonk kan palewww... ok sy thu.. sy kna tepan walid sy g thu hal sebenar.. bebekalkan semanagat proton inspira (asik waja je.. sesekali kna tuka), sy tepon jua dye... setelah beberapa mnit *^%&%^#$@#@$E#%&^&*(*(&*^&%%#$@#@ (urusan sri paduka bginda,, _sulit) so ngn muka lega bwu kuar pnjara nya sy kata.. yeyyyy da g thu ayh... ayh kata ok.. lalalallalaa

~~~~agenda empat~~~~

Dlm LRT.... ermmmm ta bpe cun sgguh tyme tu... dan2 tyme ma tepon sy, kami da smpai station kt midberi... huahuahua.. terketar plak na g thu ma... *pdn muka sy kan*

~~~~agenda lima~~~

bsmbung nnti

dis life cudnt be same

have u ever had that small little feeling in your heart

that ur missing sumthing or sumone but u really don't noe what or who

cause there is really nothing to miss.

everything is already around u.

but somehow there's just that empty spot in ur head or heart

whatever suits u,

that u noe there is something missing or that ur missing.

mmm.......

could it only be my hormones?

probably..

i really honestly don't noe.

*
everyone's got to face down the demons
maybe today
u could put the past away
i wish u would step back from that ledge my friend,
u could cut ties with all the lies, that u've been living in,
n if you do not want to see me again,

i would understand.
i would understand.

lately, the atmosphere seems to be like a volcano eruption.

yes, I'm tired,

fed-up and it takes too much efforts to control my anger.

unfortunately, they failed.

aahh...im over it

i'm OVER everything that i felt screwed up about.

it took me longer than i expected.

hmm.

i promised myself that i'd only allow myself to feel screwed up for only a night,

but it took me two days.

but that's still exceptable to me.

it used to take me longer.

i'm getting better at this.

perhaps

(masalanya sure ke ak oukeyhh je ni)

what??

these are what I've been feeling for recent days:

- insecure

-sad

-hatred

- uneasy

-what? pehal kamu nak sibuk

bak kata nidji, roda memang sudah berputar.

I'm now believing in that.

I really do.

kinda exhausted

I really,

REALLY

dont want this blog to revert to its previous whiny,

complainy incarnation...

but its just that this week hasnt been my favorite.

so..

this isnt going to be a ''real'' blog post..

its not that i dont have anything to say

i do hokeyhhh

im just not ready yett (ermmm)

i've had jumble of stupid feeling running singing around my brain, heart, kidney, liver n so on

i thing it had been tired enough to descibe how it cn be

eh.. choppp

this damn feeling making me suffer as i hv to recap physic chemistry formula in biokem lab

since this few days

but i just feel kinda exhausted...seyesss

i've spent the last week or so just trying not to feel so tired physically.

mentalityy and emotionally..

work, class, illness, and stress just sorta got the best of me... (#_#)

i’m now over the physical exhaustion,

but the mental/emotional exhaustion has just taken over...

alhamdulillah.. much better than da worst part i've done

i’m feeling a bit burnt out on, well, feeling.

i know that sounds so strange, but it’s so true for me.

i’m basically just trying to process everything and find ways to rejuvenate.

my goal for this weekend is to just play and do nothing.

perhaps i cn do

class sorta ruined that for me today, but tomorrow’s another opportunity.

i think i'm going to run away for a day

but that not da road can be taken

to many thing to do

rethinking again n again making lower n lower degree bcome da positive one

ohhh MY..

PLEASE .....

do let me know how im going thru da day..

guess its not simple as u pass the mekDee drive thru.

uhoohhuuoo