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Monday, February 6, 2012

monolog hati dak fyp

Assalamulaikum >>

masyaAllah rase lama ta mnjengah dunia blog bagai.. sekadar sempat mmbaca blog orang lain.. haish tah la ta sempat rasanya na buat sama. Betul la org kata bila dah de FYP mmg segalanya2 ta sempat... bukan sbb bizi 24 jam pun sbb jd telalu mls da.. haha mgkin juga org kata ujian jd plajar tahur akhir

mlihat jendela pelangi hidup ranya semakin dekat dengan tarikh 19 febuari bukan? Debarnya saya.. eh sabar2 jgn slh phm bukan tarihkh penting kawen ke tunang ke.. belum ke arh itu buat masa ini. Smakin melangkah saya di SEM 6 dimana sem akhir tuk degree saya. Diam ta diam rupanya saya da 5 sem duk di bumi matahari terik kuala Terengganu

siapa sgka minah yg PEMALAS ni da berada di stu puncak lg kmbara hidup sebagai pelajar.. eh ayat ta nak skema kan.. (^^) poyo lebeh je..

ramai yg kahwen anda bila lagi.. ehh sy sangat dah lali dgn ayat tu.. rse na tulis je kat dahi eh sy single la.. hahaha (ni sekadar iklan ). Jika sy hitung berapa lgkah telah saya buat tah bpe kalori je yg mmpu di buang.. mlihat awn2 nano berlagu sne sni lgsung tad pt sy ertikan dengan perjalann sy smasa dsini

mulai rsa debaran kerinduan yang bakal berlaku.. merungkai lg satu episode perpisahan apabila tamat je sem 6 nnati (makkk aii sem 6 ta masuk lg ak da start tacing) klo sy kira la pengalaman.. hurm mgkin setebal lemak dibadan sy amaknya... eeeeee yekkk apakhh..

berbalik pada kesebikan sy dngn fyp adakalanya perasaan tersungkur itu perlu sebelum sy jatuh.. perasaan takut itu perlu sebelum sy hadapi sesuatu.. smuanya mmpu mgerakan seluruh fizikal emosi sy tuk mlakukan persediaan dri... kita ta semestinya di atas dan bila di atas ta semestinya kita ta jatuh... perit itu perlu jika anda seorang pelajar kerana disitu letaknya kemanisan bila berjihat mnuntut ilmu.

mnjalani hidup sbg amoebasitter benar2 mguji kesabaran ku sbgai mak org.. menatang haiwan2 kecil yg ta nmpk dimata tp telekat di minda adakalanya mgundang rasa lelah dan penat.. hanya bermodalkan PYG medium serta T shape flask.. ank2 kecil mmpu ku jaga dlm buaian incubator.. hadoiii untung lha sy jaga awk ngn tekun ...

alhamdulillah isu contamination smemangnya tdk boleh dijadikan alasan.. precaution step shud be more alert when we re step da method.. take tyme la juga na mnyetelkan.... tp sy blajar erti SABAR dan TELITI . wondering how a messy gurl need to be a PERfect gurl..

Monday, December 26, 2011

the drop of tears

heyy im think im gonna shut this blog
suppose to be since long time ago
why ek????
hurmmm wudd think it later

seyes ta rase perlu pun hambur suma perasaan kt sni.. de ke yg mmnbaca n terbaca?? ade ke yg kesah ato bkesah???? ato ade ke yg mmbantu pd yg perlu??? tak bukan?? we justt sit on less than 5 minutes to read then later nothing... nothing we can do.. nothing that we done

so im thnking the purpose why i shud clariified my life here n here.. tell them bout wht i going through bout da distance n the road that i taken in the journey.. the scene where i cried so much in my life seem many as compared the scene that i laugh....

the journey still far to go as the day that i QUIT from this live... need much suffer n pain to get me have better scene.. i mean happy time. this life taught me to cry for let me create the smile.... this life taught me pain n suffer to let me create something different
yes.. something different
that i couldnt distinguish that yet
something that i cudnt open the keyy yet
the key of my life.. the key of my heart..the key that will show me whut im going to do n its all about what i wanted the most in this life...

heyyy la tafzan.... la tafzan.. i just smile in frozen moment when they asking me dont be sad...i wishes that i cud stop cry inside too even my tears end. i can see my tears drop by drop but how bout tears from heart.. that i couldnt see n i dont know how they stop n began.....

did u realize???? that they dropped my tears so much
much muchh muchh


Thursday, December 22, 2011

im just me.....


here at last i think im alive again, well a bit a decade since da last post that i create rite?? it just me... just being simple, hard n much emotioanal. i dont understand y sumtime people get da wrong idea bout me. I am not sure exactly where they get their ideas from. but, i guess we are all guilty of making assumptions about sumone based on one small thing instead of his/her bigger pixca

usually its in a flattering way: people who think that im capable of doing much more than I actually can or who think that i somehow manage to do it all. i don’t… and not by a long shot.

sumetimes its in a not so flattering way, but it’s my blog and idon’t feel like addressing those certain people. So im choosing not to....i don’t quite know what to do about the unrealistic expectations that are sumtimes put on me.

becoz im just me... n becoz sumtime i think thattttttt:::::::::::

im silly......

i get cranky when i’m tired or hungry...

i don’t have much tolerance for mean people....

i get hurt by rude things that are said....

i want to believe the best in people...

im devastated when someone betrays me......

i cry easily..

i get hurt easily....

bcoz im not so perfect, full of weakness.... thus im hurting others rite

so that only i cn do.. just a person whom sumtime get so lonely heart even full of love, just a person whom u call a friend... just a person whom u cal enemy... i cant change ur judgement for me...

Sunday, August 28, 2011

u pissed me out dear~~~

ok.. mgkin ade yg ta thu, or mgkin ade yg ta nk amik thu.. tade niat tuk minta simpati, tp hya lah sekupas rse yg mlnda kt dri.. algkah elok jika kamu mndengar rintihan ini, algkah elok jika kamu mmpu pulgkan smula...

ketahuilah whai kamu2 yg mncuri
hati mu takkan tenang selagi tidak pulgkan... jiwa takkan aman slagi tdk mghadp ku, fikiran mu beterusan celaru slgi ampun maaf tdk dilakukan

tiada lgsung erti dendam.. mhupun doa yg tdk baik.. tp skdar mau kamuu thu stp yg dilakukan perlu pengadilan.
layakkah kamu mnerima maaf berulang kali tuk ksalahn yg sama
mggunakan bntuan jin betopengkan syaitan tuk mngaut keuntungan
whaiii kamuu kamuu kamuu yg sy tdk pernah knl kamu
apakah silap sy dimata kamu

ketahuan lah wahai kamu si pncuri.. tdk pernah putus hadiah yasin n selawat tuk mu
agr lemah ta bdaya slagi tdk dipulng kan suma itu

Monday, July 11, 2011

pe yg telah blaku dkt sy

ok ni la muka ter latest shayer
chukup syarat tuk sy katakan
bluehypo is back

hidup y brubah or perubahan yg blaku dlm hidup sy???
melihat kalendar di hujung bucu bilik
tepampang julai 2011
byk bnda blaku bnyak bnda sy na cerita
tapi stu pun y ta ter update
ade yg hepi ade yg suram tak lupa juga yg gila2

roda kehidupan sentiasa bepusing
sumtime u think u up but u never know the next going to b down
hokeyhh perlu ke ade yg kesah

1- mse final exam sem 4 byk musibah blaku
ditikam n menikam kawan baik ape je sy rse
fair n square ke beb klo da cm tu aiigoo00

2- latihan industri di malacca institute Biotechnology fully done
meet the crazier thing in my life...
wif yana my best partner in lab microb thnks ya my prada

they owez make me crazy n hepi.... luv u olls


wif zati (^^)

3- result sem 4 da kuar alhamdulillah merasa gak sy tuk dpt DEAN LIST
tp ta bmkna sy rse hidup sy da diatas
suma tu rezki berkat doa mak ayh n restu lecturer
tak lupa juga sahabat2 yg byk mmbntu
yg ta bntu pun y ucp tq sbb bg psiko tuk sy lebih tekun(^^)

4- byk bnda bru yg sy dpt spnjang cuti


kasut JEEP (MMG tebaik dr ladang)
jgn mnyalah paham kasut ni la sy lanyak smasa praktikal

3 helai bju kurung with cokelat purse
(thnks to auntie noraha n dimba)

sy juga dpt hp ni from my ma
thanks mom
cyg kamoo (^^) <3

kasut tumit jenama buaya
beg tangan my COUCH killing me (soon)
(erghhh da mcm dpt hntaran plak)
most guna duit simpanan hokeyh

kreta MAM yg bakal dicat wane wani seindah pelangi
thnks credit to walid (^^)

5- alhamdulillah setiap mggu de je program terisi spnjang cuti
smpat la sy ke jay bee, ke penang, ke kg, ke puncak alam, ke bangi, ke muadzam,

6- every two week adeq2 sy balik ke mlaka
n kami akn tgk wayang together hishhh diowang ni tyme tgk wayg ok
suh jd gps mse sy drive erghhhhh

ni ler keadaanya kami betiga dlm keta adehhh

kite pow dak kechik niyh smpai g atm

7- sy bakal bekerja!!!!
waaaa sepnjang hidup ni la fes time na try keje
mampu ke x ek????


latest news... gonna have

erghhh ni lum kompem tp lam pebncangan
hik2 tq my bro
inshaAllah raya t akn bwk balik modem ni balik ganu

bila saya menangi



~~~~heyyy u noe my name.. but u may dont noe me
u noe what u heard what im done
but u dont knoe what i been thru~~~~

this gonna be really really hard.
now i'm trying to like some
thing else but none of it helps even a bit
.
i just can't stop crying.
it hurts.
kept on crying myself to sleep but still all of the memories are stuck inside my head even ..

ohh namo la bcakap itu suma
rse na melalak lagi je kang
meruntun je rse bru2 niyh. pe tah yg tkurang
telebih bicara pun ta leh tkurang apetah lg
mata saya da macam panda kan

btul kn klo kita nangis sejibik mata panda

erghhhh kalo lah cm zaman kekechik dlu kan... bila na nangis mesti na ngaga leluas kan
suara ta yah cita la ,mau tak nye begema stu taman..
tp bila da besar ta bley suda mo nagis cmtu
kena cover2 bila kntoi mta cm panda reti plak segan2
aduyaiiii
(merujuk dri sendiri)
aiggo0o
menagis ni bagus sbenarnya cuma ta bley lelebiyh n over
(walopun hakikatnya ak la yg OVER tu)
bkn ape... klo telebiyh gt nagis leh kna migrain.. hurm
tp klo na nangis tu tak salah sebab nya
air mata yg kuar tu leh wat cuci mata kita
leh cuci hati sekali tambah2 lg jika menangi mmbayangkan dosa yg mggunung tinggi
yg penting slepa menagis kita akn rse lega n tenang sangat

hurm mmg selalunya golongan spt kami ni la yg kuat menagis
terapi katanya
tetapi ta bemakna kami ni lemah
ye tak??

tahu tak knapa kita menangis?????


~~~~ANGIN MALAM MMBAWA AIRMATA KU~~~~

Wednesday, June 22, 2011

im just a simple girl


back to my life wif a simple gurl

hmm...there's that "timing" thing again.

my dear life... this da part where i need start to run,
i dont mean JUST physically, though i've been doing a lot thing lately
sumtime i need a sumone to be my reminder
sumtime i need a smack in the face too.. apparently...
basically these kind of thing i wud rather share alone my self instead with others
but it this where im rite now... occasionally i get open book syndrome

Belief is everything.
it is da core within u that starts da fire
everything extends from there.
dat makes it all the more important that u r careful wut u believe.
question every belief that doesn't allow you to be your best self.
embrace and cultivate the beliefs that invite you to live well, love purely (that includes yourself) and do good.
in time u will break out of the shell of self doubt you are encompassed
about in now and arise as the amazing creature
u were always intended to be.
hey just believe ur self lorh;)